The journey of my life

Where to start?I was 4th out of 5,(my father died when i was 6)one elder sister,4 boys,i was always painfully shy.My journey into crossdressing started when i was 9,i was alone in the house with my sister,who was then 14.While she was downstairs,i walked into her room, why to this day i dont know why,but sitting on the bed was her school uniform.Looking at it i thought how nice it would be to put it on.I took it back to my room where i started to dress.Pulling on her white Knickers i was aware of my fast beating heart,and how naughty i was being.Fumbling with the bra,i then put on the skirt(which was too big for me),when the door was pushed open and there stood my sister!She looked at me astounded,then shouted at me to take them off and she was going to tell mum(my father had died 2 years before).I pleaded to her not to,but she wouldn't listen.At dinner that night my mum gave me a few curiuos glances but said nothing. Later that evening my mum came into my room to say goodnight she asked about wearing my sisters clothes,i broke down in tears and said i was sorry,that i wouldnt do it again.Mum surprised me then by saying she always thought i was a little different,and did i like wearing girls clothes.I nodded dumbly,and she said goodnight.I though nothing more of it,until a week later i found 3 pairs of Knickers in underwear drawer.I ran downstairs to confront my mum who asked 'did i like them?' and a knowing look.
Life went on,my brothers joined the army,and my sister married,(mum joked i should have gone as a flower girl!)leaving mum my younger brother and me at home.It was at this time my wardrobe grew,a school dress,more knickers,tights and a few bras,kept in mums wardrobe away from my brother.When puberty hit mum noticed my erections when dressing as a girl.She explained what was happening to me,i cried a little,but told me that although i was a boy i would still be her little girl.