Stars are aligning: I found someone special!
My experience with older women has been disappointing and frustrating so far. Despite actively seeking them out and meeting several, I haven't found 'the one.' While I've formed some friendships, the physical attraction wasn't there, and even when intimacy occurred, it felt lacking and not right. Conversely, the women I found physically attractive appeared uninterested or unapproachable and showed no genuine interest in me. I also got an impression from some of them that they viewed me as a mere 'toyboy' to play with rather than as a person.
But that is not who I am. I do not allow myself to be used by anyone for mere amusement. That is dehumanizing and degrading. I treat others the way I want to be treated. And the way I do not want to be treated is then also how I do not treat others. I am not the type of guy to 'get a woman.' I want someone with whom I feel good, where there is a genuine connection, someone who does not see me just as an 'attractive young body.' I want it to be emotionally and mentally safe and fulfilling.
I cannot simply engage in casual fun or sex with a woman, just using each other without deeper connection. No, I need something real, genuine, and fulfilling — something that brings me lasting happiness, not just momentary satisfaction, similar to 'fast food.' While it may taste good while you are eating it, the sickness, emptiness or disappointment that follow leave one feeling cheated and unfulfilled not getting what you wanted or expected.
It has been challenging to deal with it and overcome the experience with women so far, especially not giving up and letting myself be a victim and come to the conclusion that all (older) women are just like this, that I will never find the one I am looking for, that such women do not exist (anymore), that they are all the same, that those who are attractive just use their body as a tool to play games and as a weapon to control/subordinate men. When you mentally end up here, two things happens – you give up and stop actively looking for real women because you think/believe there are no real women or you think you need to lower yourself to those manipulative bitches – compromising your integrity and dignity to conform to manipulative behaviour in hopes of gaining something in return, to simply allow oneself to be used by them, to conform to their desires because then at least you get something. Both options means you lose, you lose yourself as a real man and you lose your dignity – things that should matter the most to you and are the most valuable in your life.
Fortunately, I have been strong enough and have never given up, nor lost my dignity by lowering myself to anyone... And it seems I have been rewarded for my search, for staying true to myself, for perseverance and patience. It seems that the stars are aligning. I have finally met a hot and kind older woman who is not only physically attractive and hot (a real BBW with big ass, thighs, breasts) but also very sweet, friendly, polite and not to forget, she seems to have a genuine interest in me.
I met her last November during a walk in the town where I live. She immediately caught my attention as soon as she arrived at the start of the walk. I knew I had to take my chance. I approached her, and we walked together and talked during the entire walk. I knew I needed her contact info to stay in touch. I ask for her socials and even if she said – you need someone younger/of your age, it did not sound convincing and she did not protest at all to stay in touch. I sent her a message the same day, and she immediately replied, saying she also found it pleasant and nice to meet me. A few days later, we met again for a walk, and once again, we talked the whole time and enjoyed each other's company.
The following 3 months, we have not seen each other. Not only was the weather bad for outdoors activities, but it also did not feel right to suggest anything – especially asking her to do something just with me. It just did not feel the right thing to do at that time. I didn't want to rush either. There was a kind of obstacle, a good one, that prevented me from taking actions that could have a negative impact on our relation. Of course, after all that negative experience, I was afraid of losing her and that pushing it might not be well-received.
She has been very friendly all this time, but she also didn't make herself available or suggest anything. Perhaps she has been waiting for me to take action or, like me, giving it time to figure out what she wants and how things evolve.
One thing that's for sure is that if you want to build a genuine connection and something real, you need to give it time. You can't push or rush it because you might just spoil or ruin it. It needs to evolve naturally/organically. If it should happen, then it will. I think this is even more true when there are bigger differences and possible obstacles between you, such as age.
What really got to me the last month was that she was liking/commenting on everything I did online. No one has ever shown me that kind of attention before. It affected me and motivated me to be more active. In the last month, we've chatted much more, almost every day, sometimes even until midnight. What also assures me that she has real interest is that when I send her a message, she responds almost immediately.Two weeks ago, I asked her what she was up to and if she wanted to go biking. She agreed, and for the first time, we did something together alone.
It has been quite intense and a bit mind-blowing the last couple of weeks, and I still can’t believe it. Now she is on vacation for a month, so I won't see her. It's time to digest what has happened so far and plan the following steps. Even if nothing more happens between us (which of course is not what I am hoping for, expect and want), I have a connection with her I have never had with anyone before, and for that, I am thankful and it feels fucking amazing!
I will keep you updated about how this very special relation and adventure evolves. I hope the rest of 2024 is gonna be very hot and intense!
Let me know in the comments below what you would do and what you think will happen. Feel free to let your imagination run wild, but please no BS, just nice, hot ideas.
But that is not who I am. I do not allow myself to be used by anyone for mere amusement. That is dehumanizing and degrading. I treat others the way I want to be treated. And the way I do not want to be treated is then also how I do not treat others. I am not the type of guy to 'get a woman.' I want someone with whom I feel good, where there is a genuine connection, someone who does not see me just as an 'attractive young body.' I want it to be emotionally and mentally safe and fulfilling.
I cannot simply engage in casual fun or sex with a woman, just using each other without deeper connection. No, I need something real, genuine, and fulfilling — something that brings me lasting happiness, not just momentary satisfaction, similar to 'fast food.' While it may taste good while you are eating it, the sickness, emptiness or disappointment that follow leave one feeling cheated and unfulfilled not getting what you wanted or expected.
It has been challenging to deal with it and overcome the experience with women so far, especially not giving up and letting myself be a victim and come to the conclusion that all (older) women are just like this, that I will never find the one I am looking for, that such women do not exist (anymore), that they are all the same, that those who are attractive just use their body as a tool to play games and as a weapon to control/subordinate men. When you mentally end up here, two things happens – you give up and stop actively looking for real women because you think/believe there are no real women or you think you need to lower yourself to those manipulative bitches – compromising your integrity and dignity to conform to manipulative behaviour in hopes of gaining something in return, to simply allow oneself to be used by them, to conform to their desires because then at least you get something. Both options means you lose, you lose yourself as a real man and you lose your dignity – things that should matter the most to you and are the most valuable in your life.
Fortunately, I have been strong enough and have never given up, nor lost my dignity by lowering myself to anyone... And it seems I have been rewarded for my search, for staying true to myself, for perseverance and patience. It seems that the stars are aligning. I have finally met a hot and kind older woman who is not only physically attractive and hot (a real BBW with big ass, thighs, breasts) but also very sweet, friendly, polite and not to forget, she seems to have a genuine interest in me.
I met her last November during a walk in the town where I live. She immediately caught my attention as soon as she arrived at the start of the walk. I knew I had to take my chance. I approached her, and we walked together and talked during the entire walk. I knew I needed her contact info to stay in touch. I ask for her socials and even if she said – you need someone younger/of your age, it did not sound convincing and she did not protest at all to stay in touch. I sent her a message the same day, and she immediately replied, saying she also found it pleasant and nice to meet me. A few days later, we met again for a walk, and once again, we talked the whole time and enjoyed each other's company.
The following 3 months, we have not seen each other. Not only was the weather bad for outdoors activities, but it also did not feel right to suggest anything – especially asking her to do something just with me. It just did not feel the right thing to do at that time. I didn't want to rush either. There was a kind of obstacle, a good one, that prevented me from taking actions that could have a negative impact on our relation. Of course, after all that negative experience, I was afraid of losing her and that pushing it might not be well-received.
She has been very friendly all this time, but she also didn't make herself available or suggest anything. Perhaps she has been waiting for me to take action or, like me, giving it time to figure out what she wants and how things evolve.
One thing that's for sure is that if you want to build a genuine connection and something real, you need to give it time. You can't push or rush it because you might just spoil or ruin it. It needs to evolve naturally/organically. If it should happen, then it will. I think this is even more true when there are bigger differences and possible obstacles between you, such as age.
What really got to me the last month was that she was liking/commenting on everything I did online. No one has ever shown me that kind of attention before. It affected me and motivated me to be more active. In the last month, we've chatted much more, almost every day, sometimes even until midnight. What also assures me that she has real interest is that when I send her a message, she responds almost immediately.Two weeks ago, I asked her what she was up to and if she wanted to go biking. She agreed, and for the first time, we did something together alone.
It has been quite intense and a bit mind-blowing the last couple of weeks, and I still can’t believe it. Now she is on vacation for a month, so I won't see her. It's time to digest what has happened so far and plan the following steps. Even if nothing more happens between us (which of course is not what I am hoping for, expect and want), I have a connection with her I have never had with anyone before, and for that, I am thankful and it feels fucking amazing!
I will keep you updated about how this very special relation and adventure evolves. I hope the rest of 2024 is gonna be very hot and intense!
Let me know in the comments below what you would do and what you think will happen. Feel free to let your imagination run wild, but please no BS, just nice, hot ideas.
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